The email says it all.

From: Gayleen Hays
Sent: Sunday, September 02, 2007 8:27 PM
Subject: RE: [burningman-bcwa] The REAL problem

Drip by drip,

It's difficult,

To expand your view,

Perhaps, it stretches beyond

Children

Because some of us want to keep

That expression and

Protect that energy and so we come to

Play at Burning Man

With our secret child eyes' focus.

I come to pull and get pulled up into

The joy of connecting with kindred'childish

Souls and I think on some level many

Of us come with that hope of

Finding a deep mutual

Friend.

But, then. a stranger

Hung himself early Thursday

Morning. He hung there about sixty

Minutes before we figured out he was there;

Star of his own art creation.

Why?

I began to question my own opinion.

I had arrived at Burning Man, being yelled at

By a power-hungry gate/guard befoe I even got

My ticket stamped. It was a bad start vibe.

Then, a stranger hung himself

And it changed my focus off myself and onto the

Culture I want to protect and wish we could all live

Under it's umbrella of freedom,

But, a man hung himself.

And, it's interesting.

I believe in abortion

I believe in taking mushrooms

I believe in not drinking water

I believe in drinking wine

I believe in expression

I believe in a person being free to kill himself

With he can't stand the pain.

My mother died in my arms as an animal

From pancreatic cancer.

I believe she had the right to kill herself .

But, I can't accept his freedom to

Hang himself, not here.

Why, Why do I feel he had no right.

And then, I start to understand,

This must be the start of rules

The start of constricting rules

And that sucks.